things hasn't been the same & i have this huge-ass feeling that everything that i'm going through right now will just spill over. i'm at the brink of falling apart. i dunno who i am anymore. i can't find the one i was before, & the feeling is so not right. i tried so hard to be okay, telling myself to be who i was before. but my brains are not sending the right impulses to make my body work that way. sleeping is harder than before now, i don't get proper gdnight sleep anymore & it scares me. what is wrong with me? & sometimes, even if there are so many people around me, i will still feel so alone. i feel tired of everything, i want things to work out fine, but what's the point wanting something that i know will not happen? maybe i lost hope & faith to believe in myself. i just want to get over everything that's bothering me.
but the worse thing is, i don't even know what's bothering me ...
i'm so frustrated that i didn't even bother to give this post a title.
