[ d.s.y.k.f.u.n.c.t.i.o.n.a.L` ]

heya.!
(:

had a bad start this morning.

my right eye was swollen and red.
damn. god knows why.
ish. after i came out from the toilet. and...
WAMP*
my eye was itching like crazie.!
):

and it was seriously swollen.
went to the nurse, she gave me this "eye lotion" to rinse it.
after half an hour, it was okay.
really really glad.
:D
[ she's nice. ]
(:

*

teacher's day is tmr.

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY TO ALL MY BUBBLY CARING FORM 4 TEACHERS.!
and...
TO ALL THE OTHER DEDICATED TEACHERS IN THE WORLD.

*

well, i guess this would be my last post till mid yr is over.
exams are starting this thurs.
1st paper is Add Math.
-.-
what a super greaaaatt startt.
uh huh~

wish me luck.!
*fingers-crossed*

oh well.

gtg.

xoxo.

signing off,
-wenn-
[ bubbles, cookies and kisses` ]

[ if i really need you, i'll go to the shore` ]

13th of May.

Mother's day is today.!
(:

it's all smiles smiles smiles.
laughters.!
wee~!
hahaha.

rays of sunshine.
morning kisses.

beary-beary huggies.

and...

food food food.!!!
:D

what else can be better?! lol.

gave mommy the lil' pressie and the poem that i it wrote myself to her last night.
she loves it.
:D
*smiles happily*

here's the poem:

*

On this faithful day of 13th,
You are there for us through thick and thin;
Bringing us to the world where we belong,
Those ravishing cramps and moments but still holding on strong.

Mother’s day is a day of celebration,
You gave us all the magical determination;
With you around never it is a boring day,
For you fill it up with joy and repaint the grays.

Those harsh 9 months in your tummy,
A new life is formed with beautiful shapes of semi;
As time passes by slowly,
We are the ones who came unexpectedly.

A beautiful woman in our lives,
The idol that inspire us in every ways to make us strive;
With chestnut hair and such care in her eyes,
We can never hide anything from her with our white lies.

You made us beautiful with daddy there,
Resemblance, attitudes and typical characters; very rare.
Cheeky laughters and angelic smiles,
We’ll walk to you there even if it’s a thousand miles.

Mother’s day comes and goes,
Followed by the calming breeze that blows;
But to us, everyday is mother’s day,
for you are always there waiting by the bays.

Mommy, you’re the queen of my heart,
You are the colour of brightness to create a piece of art;
Never will we fear,
Mommy, we love you dear.

Your love is like tears from the stars,
Mythical creatures, meteors and planet of Mars;
We know you’re something far better than any myths,
Your love for us will forever beat in countless breathes.

A dash of beauty,
A pinch of sentimentality,
A slice of creativity,
A teaspoon of insanity.

Those are the ingredients to make a mother-tale,
But I guess we need something more to make a cocktail;
Love, joy, hugs, kisses, pride, care, disappointments;
Tears, laughters, dignity and all the other refreshments.

Thank you for all you have done,
All those little miracles and wishful runs;
It means you mean a lot to me,
And that I honour you for being my one and only loveable mommy.

Mother, you are the snowy white dove,
Have us all showered upon overloads of love;
Even when you’re gone from this world,
We know your loving, tantalizing spirit will dance forever in our fragile hearts and stronger souls.

*

i know that my mom gave me kisses on my forehead when i was still sleeping this morning.
i pretended that i was asleep.
teehee.
aww.
i heart her lots.
forever do. (:

well, gtg off now.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MOTHERS OUT THERE.!!! <3

forgiveness is the word for today.
love is the element that lives upon us.
time is the precious start.
eternal is the period that will go on forever.

xoxo.

i love my mommy lots and lots.
mwaxx.
you're the best.

signing off,
-wenn-
[ her princess and my knight. ]
p.s: dear, thanks for helping me to get the present for my mom. well, actually thanks to your sister. (: really appreciate it.
luvya.!

[ sinful ballerina` ]

eek.
the performance is tmr. O.0

*faints*

okay.
this is definitely, utterly, indescribably NOT a good thing.

*over*

i guess i have to put up with it EVEN if currently i don't have the pathetic guts.
*cries*
)': meh`

sighh. oh well.

*

for the past few days, my fricking internet connection is being a bitch. urgh.
couldn't go online. and of all days it had to happen, it happened on the day when i seriously needed it.
couldn't manage to print out the periodic table for chemistry.
stupid.

thank god for wireless. well, actually thank YOU(whoever you are) for the wireless connection.
detected it on my laptop.
lol.
but everything is back to normal today.

using back our oh so "faithful" modem.
mm hmm.
faithful. suree.~

just got back from school.
stayed back for physics tutorial.
gotta go take my shower and practise for tmr.

yerr`
tummy-aches already.
have to perform in front of Datin. how.?! sighh. tmr's gonna be a bad day. i can feel it coming.
something is gonna happen.
+ instincts. +

i'm a poop when it comes to stage performances etc.
stage frights "is" the worst phobia of all.

well, not really for me cuz' whatever phobias i have are the worst-est of all.
whatever. lol.

wish me luck.
i just pray that i don't trip and fall off the stage.

or puke or anything embarassing.
*covers face*

xoxo.

p.s: i know i've been complaining bout me having super stage frights.

but i signed up for my school's production thing going on. -.-
sometimes, i can never understand myself. hate myself for being so contradicting.

.conTrast.

signing off,
-wenn-
*
i need hugs.
i need kisses.

but most of all,
i need you.

* loving you to the fullest. *
<3

[ je t'aime` my one and only. ]

omg.! i just realized that today is 8th of may.

see what i mean when work does gets to me sometimes? and this is the time.

urgh.

oh well.

8th of may.

1 month.
( time seriously passes reaaall fast )
freaky*

*

back to the 1 month topic. ahem. i love you dear. thanks for always being by my side. all those supports and midnight secrets. lil' wishes and loving misses. really glad that you're the one.

* 1 month and still counting on *

*lotsa hearts to you* ~ muaxies. ~

forever truly yours.

xoxo.

signing off,
-wenn-
* the girl who's no longer in a make-believe fairy tale *
{ilwsm} (:

[ tantalizing prayers. ]

i'm pissed off.
i'm not in the mood.
i've (my class) just been chosen to perform for mother's day celebration assembly this friday in school. -.-
hate hate hate hate hate.

i can't sing.
i mean how can i.?!
my nose is still eff-ing blocked up.
throat is still a bit sore.
i sound robot-ique. and now. performance -.-

*

reciting poems.
singing Boyz II Men: A Song For Mama [?!?!]
* cerr-raaaa-zzziieee *

):

darn poopie.
3 history presentations and fricking 38 structural questions due tmr and thursday.
damn.
(double the poopie)
sighh.

and... pimples are starting to blossom from my face.
yerr.!
double sighh.

gotta go hang myself now. urgh.

xoxo.
signing off,
-wenn-
* the girl with inadequate beauty sleep. )': *

[ butterfly kisses and apple pies ]

so, another day is about to end. sun is setting. reddish-orangey painted sky. atmosphere is quiet. apart from the "soothing" screams coming from my cousin behind me. -.- talk bout calm. yeah right. as if. *tsk tsk*

time passes real fast. it's already 7++pm. hmm. come to think of it, it's kinda freaky. when all of a sudden, u think back of memories when u were in primary school. and then now in secondary. i still can't forget my first day of school in secondary. lolx. it was hilarious. and at that point, i was still the innocent one. *big googly eyes look* and now. i'm in form 4. next yr is the yr that will determine my future. well in fact, it's starting from this yr. it's kinda stressing to know that whatever we're doing now will be the choices we're bout to make for yrs to come. *scary* but i guess that's life. sighh.

):

sometimes, i wonder. why can't life be simple.? but then again, it's l.i.f.e. it's meant to be this way. every single action we're taking right now is a choice. we choose to do what we want and what we don't want. but it's the choice we make to know whether if it's a bad or the right one. i guess only we, ourselves would know it. i know at this age, we're supposed to study our ass* off and earn all the knowledge that we are possible to fit in our puny brains. but apparently, we need to have fun too.

i was told i don't have a life just because i'm one of those "study freaks" but i do slack off at times. i can be a rebel too. family backgrounds can play a huge influence. parents want us to study hard, get good grades, get enrolled and admitted into good schools or colleges. and the worst thing of all. NOT to fall in LOVE.

why not.?

*cries*
)':

i know that i'm too young. okay, i admit it, i was young. but...
i wasn't naive. i mean, love is a really beautiful thing. it's the closest thing we have to magic. hey, everyone can't deny the fact that falling in love gives such a pleasurable feeling on the inside. knowing that someone cares, having someone to hold on to, someone who wants us for who we are regardless of whatever mistakes we'd done in our past, someone to share everything to... gosh. it's endless.

i know my boundaries. i know when i'm supposed to be serious and when i'm not supposed to be. i can't be sure of who i'm gonna be in the future. but i know that strolling on the path of the journey of life is tough. it gets tougher with rocky ends and bad weather. but i guess it's not how far our journey is but having someone who's willing to strive on those rocky roads with you.

it's true that we'll fall, get cuts and bruises along the way. in the end, i'll know it's worth all the pain. i know when darkness falls, you are there to light up my way with the lantern in your hands to illuminate the path for me just so i could get a better view where i'm going and not trip and fall flat on my face into poops again. that's why love is there.

*

you promised me bout forever. i've been thinking. is there such a thing as forever? eternal? until i met you*, i believe so. you made me think bout it that way. you've accepted me for who i am. being with you, it makes me understand myself better. i was afraid of being who i was because of everything that had happened. i don't have the confidence to fall in love even though my feelings towards you are strong. but somehow, i don't have the determination anymore. still, you didn't mind, you said that you'll always be there to reassure me once again. at that moment, i realize i can be who i want to be. thanks for all the time you were there telling me, redirecting me.

but you have to know, it's not easy to forget to past. i'm trying to forget. it all takes time to heal the wound. though it may heal, but the scar will always remain there. i know this time, the relationship between us will last. i am not sure how sure i am as much as i say i do, but my instincts inside tell me so. i know you'll always be the one and only. i love you. you make me believe in eternity. you make me trust on forever. you opened my eyes to see a better view of the sceneries in life, you made me want to live life to the fullest with you around. thank you so much. i know you'll always be my guardian angel in life.

*

i flunk life. i made the biggest mistake.

xoxo.

signing off,
-wenn-
* i'm not the one i used to be anymore; goner and believer *
-forever his-

[ feverish and blues. ]

it's a saturday. what else do you expect? saturday fever? nah~ more like the temperamental "fever". i'm still down with a cough and flu. -.- it's been there for 1 whole week. damn~
and my mood isn't quite the same -.- still kinda bad and moody.

anywayxx, went to Gleneagle this morning for my usual physiotherapy exercises and all. was really tiring. muscles aching; ankle's sore.

):

oh well. the same thing happens every weekends. lolx. tuition today is postponed to 8.30 tonight. gosh. -.- sighh. was supposed to be at 3.30pm but teacher called and said that classes are all taken at that time. wtf. bla~

my poor boo boo is still in school. he's gonna be there up to fricking late 10pm tonight. ): *hugs to you* eff-ing study skills. poor fifth formers. being stuck in school for 12 hours.!

dear lord, it's gonna be my turn next yr. amen`. *cross*

daddy's b'day is in 2 weeks! woah. he's gonna turn the big 48 *wanna make the 48 look bigger. =P teehee* on the very faithful day of 20th May! a date to rmb. (: but he'll be celebrating all alone all the way in lonesome Nigeria. talk bout a bad b'day. ): but he's coming back on the 24th, so we'll most prolly have a nice belated one with him here in m'sia. (: see i'm nice. *angelic look* seriously i am. *you'll see pigs fly* =P heh. i'm daddy's girl. i love you dad! awww~ hearts hearts hearts. <3

apart from that, Mother's Day is on the 13th~ *lots of lurrvee around this month of may*

and...

my mid year exams are on the 17th. -.- darn poopie.

i know my b'day is still a long long long way ahead, but this yr's b'day is gonna be bad. )': *double the sadness, thrice the tears* parents will be in nigeria by then; waiyi's leaving for australia in the month i was born. what a hellufa b'day farewells. yerr. wanna burst out in tears.! *sob* but i guess i have to put up with it. urgh. needless to say...

i know it's still waayy too early to even start complaining. lolx.

well, for now. back to the books. as usual. typical life of mine. meh`

xoxo.

signing off,
-wenn-
* truly his *

P.S: lurrrvve my new layout. thank you oh so so so much waiyi jie! hearts to you. mwaxx~ you tau tak? can you feel my misses from here. hehe. xoxoxo.

paint me a rainbow`

phew~ just got back from school. talk bout tired-ful much? *fans-self* the weather is horrendous-ly hot today -.- resolved to eating ice cream (yum- slurps~) in the end though i'm still having a cough and flu =P what?! i can't bear with the heat any longer. *innocent look* gonna die of dehydration. ish~

SPM study skills started today and it's gonna last for 3 days up to this sunday. nothing for me to really complain about since mine is next yr. it's just i didn't exactly get to see him much today. *pouts* no fair. oh well... sighh.

stayed back for supposedly physics tutorial but... my teacher was busy with the study skills stuff; conclusion, cancelled. -.- urgh. today is a bad day. well, i can feel it's gonna be i mean most prolly symptoms of pms. ): such a sad thing. hate hate hate it! =/

gonna start studying my ass off! mid year's coming. i repeat.

M.I.D. Y.E.A.R. E.X.A.M.s
eekk~ *big eyes*

well, gotta go take my shower now. and off to hit the books.

[ signed sealed delivered; i'm yours ]

xoxo.

signing off,
-wenn-
+ i miss my boo boo +

[ a start of something new` ]

heya. it's a fresh new start to a new bloggie. am so excited. this is a sudden change, i know. i didn't inform anyone bout this new blog. not that i have to. -.- no one reads it anyway apart from waiyi. hehe. i miss you couzzie~ xanga is totally out and i've shut down my account there. it's been a year that i opened that acc but i haven't been blogging there for like i dunno? 5 months? [ god knows when ] whatever. =D but hey, everything is new for me now. new life, new air to breathe, new me (= and a new someone in my life that i know will last. *hearts to you*

i guess trust and fate really are the ultimate elements to form a ship that will sail through the darkest of hours and the brightest of time despite of the wrecked up waves and strong gusts of salty breeze; i know you'll always be there to be a float to support me from drowning deep down to the ocean below. glad that you found me and i found my way to you...

*8th of April. a date to remember. =]

[ don't expect someone to pick you up when you fall, pick yourself up and flash your cheesey-iest smile and be cute, for you were born to love yourself from the inside to the out. i do. *smiles* ]

xoxo.

signing off,
-wenn-
{ will make this blog last from now }