Shitty People

i feel so depressed. ): i wish things were better or at least i hope that she's not so problematic. but i guess, the more i hope & wish for something, the harder it'll be fulfilled. i may be a happy go lucky girl from the outside at times, laughing things off & not get pissed off that easily. but on the inside, honestly, i don't even know who i am. i'm numbed from the pain that i've went through; i guess you can say that i'm immuned to it. however, being a sensitive girl that i am, scars will always bleed & nvr heal.

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everything is written in god's book, no matter how hard you try to prevent or intervene it, it'll still happen. it's fate. what fate can do is not in our control.

Incantations

*scratches* i have a stupid itchy mosquito bite on my left arm. -.- annoying!

anyways, spm study skills is next week. eek, definitely not something to be happy about. presentations & all those stuffs. i hope i'll survive. *fingers-crossed*
speaking of which, i have bio presentation to do on that day itself as well -- on stage! =/ kill me!

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i have sejarah powerpoint presentation to do & yet i'm blogging here. so much for concentrating. -.-

p.s: headache still hasn't subside. i wonder what's wrong with me.

on msn:
me: mee(mom), headache laa! )': *whines* there's monthly test tmr somemore!
mom: maybe too much stress. stop studying & go to sleep. it's okay to fail monthly test.

- yes, that's my mom. encouraging me to fail. - wouldn't you just love her?

am i really stressing THAT much?

major headache.

i have a sudden urge to delete this blog & create a new one on wordpress.com. so depressing!

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it's the o8.o4.o8.
the day that marks a year.

- loves.`

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i feel so bad skipping school.
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i wish i knew more.
i wish i wasn't this way.
i wish that i don't have to pretend to like you.
i wish that i do not need to hide my inner feelings.
i wish that you can just get out of my life.

i wish, i wish, i wish ... stupid!

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oh oh, happy april fool! :D

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i'm having a flu. =/

things hasn't been the same & i have this huge-ass feeling that everything that i'm going through right now will just spill over. i'm at the brink of falling apart. i dunno who i am anymore. i can't find the one i was before, & the feeling is so not right. i tried so hard to be okay, telling myself to be who i was before. but my brains are not sending the right impulses to make my body work that way. sleeping is harder than before now, i don't get proper gdnight sleep anymore & it scares me. what is wrong with me? & sometimes, even if there are so many people around me, i will still feel so alone. i feel tired of everything, i want things to work out fine, but what's the point wanting something that i know will not happen? maybe i lost hope & faith to believe in myself. i just want to get over everything that's bothering me.

but the worse thing is, i don't even know what's bothering me ...

i'm so frustrated that i didn't even bother to give this post a title.

I have fringe now.

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It's all Over

Finally! My first mid-semester is finally overrr!!! rawr! :D



I'm fricking ass happy that I don't feel like blogging at all.

Okay, done.



Bye!