k a r m a

!THIEF!

I HATE YOU!

god will take everything from you, one day.

i can ASSURE that!

i've trust you LONG enough!

there won't be another time!

i've caught you red-handed. so stop blardy denying it!

though i know i let it go this time, but i'm pretty sure what you did!

i know you'll get your rightful punishment, maybe not now.

but i know the time will come.!

and when that time comes, it won't be a good one.!

for whatever you did will bite you back once and for all!

this time i hold grudges. i never hold grudges for a long time.

i guess it had to happen.

NO ONE CAN HELP YOU AT ALL!

+ CHANCES +

should i or should i not?. *


sigining off,

-wenn-

i'm sorry.

i've deleted it.

i misjudged everything.

sorry.

scratch

alrights.

i've changed my layout once again.

i know i know.

too free.

which i'm not at all.

(okay, maybe a lil'. ;p)

decided to change it 'cuz my previous skin don't have the links to my archives.

and worse, i dunno how to actually edit the html and all for the linking archives.

so...

to save trouble, i went to look for a new skin.

and i fell in love with this.
♥

aww`

i really like the design.

calming to me.

simplicity is the best.!

(:

and.

it has links to my archives.

which was even better.

:D

yay-ness.

gonna stick to this.
((:
*beams*

*

okays.

today was normal.

just like any other day.

went to school.

went to class.

had bm first.

and was told that on monday, students from indon. will be coming to our school for some "perbincangan" thing with us form 4s.

urgh.

don't like it.

not being racist.

but i don't like being in a crowd or a group where each of us have to present and talk.

i get nervous and butterflies in tummy.

sighh.

oh well.

not like we have a choice.

lalala.*

tmr's report card day.

hmm.

somehow, i don't feel anythin'.

i'm not scared, and not nervous.

but then again.

there's another feeling...

wonder what it is.

'cause i don't even know it myself.

lol.

and all that random-ness.
:D

well, i guess that's all for now.

gonna start on my hwk.

history.

all that khalifahs.

tsk.*

xoxo.

signing off,

-wenn-

+ so in love ♥ +

sweetness of barley

it's really ironic and funny when it comes to when people who lost someone they loved, wants them back again.

most of the time, it's usually the lost of someone for someone else.

and i'm talking bout relationship here.

it's partially your fault, and you know it.

but, you realized what you did wrong and regretted.

you want the other partner back in your life when you yourself stepped outta theirs.

don't get me wrong here.

i'm not saying it's not right that you want the one you lost back with you.

but i'm just trying to portray here is that, you gave up on them.

you hurt their feelings.

you gave them false hopes.

you took away the colours that were supposed to be there from their palette.

and why are you here again, telling that all you did was wrong?

why are you saying sorry?

why are you trying so hard?

you let it go.

so, that's the consequences that you have to bear.

pain, heartaches, loneliness.

everything.

it's karma really.

what goes around come around.

hmm.

in some ways, sometimes, it's hard to define that word.

you know the definition in your mind and heart.

but you dunno the true meaning of it.

and it haunts you.

that's what makes it so creepy.

sighh.

life.

c'est la vie, monsieur et mademoiselle.

*

anyways.

lol.

today was awesome for me.

he surprised me with an apple pie (though i don't like apple pie) and a container of barley drink.

he actually left it in my locker!

awww`

he's such a sweetheart.

moreover, he boiled the barley himself.

*beams*

awww`

and it's a lil' bit sweeter.

lol.

but it's the thoughts that counts! :D :D

i was so happy.

i love you loads baby.!

really.

though i don't like apple pies, but hey! i ate to the last bit, kay!

:D

oh oh.

it was from McD.
;p

sooooo cute`

not the pie.

him.

gosh.

i feel like a lovey dovey lovebird.

all bubbly with boiling love.

lol.

but i mean, that's the sweetest thing a guy ever did for me.

how sweet is that?!

okay.

'nuff of bragging.

:D

*

apart from that, zu and i planned to go for the cheerleading competition taking place this saturday and sunday at bkt. jalil.

then, everyone in class [well not everyone] said they wanna come along.

so we planned (in class) to go to mid valley after that for a movie or something.

i haven't been to the movies for ages!

jeez. god knows when how long.

tsk.*

wanna watch the movie "Alone".

it's stated that the movie was directed by the director who directed "Shutter".

[i haven't watch the Shuttle and i really wanna watch it]

friends and cousin said it's good.

so i guess, this movie will be good.

can't wait.!

(:

guess that's all for today.

have to start on my hwk soon.

packed with tonnes.

as always.

lol

oh well.

xoxo.

siging off,

-wenn-

+ a gypsy's mystical ball +

[ chiffon cake` ]

just got out from the shower.

feeling fresh and cleaner now.

wasn't feeling that comfortable in the morning.

ahh well.

daddy's day is today.

but he's not here today.

back in good ol' nigeria with mom.

so i guess, it's daddy's day with her i supposed.

hmm.

*

alarm rang at 7.15am.

set it just to wake the boyfriend up.

piggie laa u.

but love you for that.
*beams*

he had a friendly match in school this morning.

i just went straight back to bed.

then, there were lotsa noises downstairs.

grandma's scolding someone again.

quickly rushed down to check what'd happened.

not exactly would i say the usual.

cousin's been accused for stealing her money thanks to her lil' sister.

but then again, i know my cousin's been snooping around my stuffs.

just kept it quiet really.

i'm not that kinda girl that go around accusing ppl without actually knowing the entire story / situation.

she was crying.

went into her room.

asked her thoroughly what happened.

her lil' sister assumed that she stole grandma's money 'cuz she bought a new bag.

but the thing is, it wasn't even hers.

friend of hers told her to buy it.

so all in all.

it was a misunderstanding.

sad thing is, no one actually ever try to understand...

all complications happen because of indirect miscommunications and assumptions of thoughts and majorities of grudges.

i don't hold grudges.

well...

only to certain ppl.

can't think of any at the mo'.

lol.
;p

sighh.

what a morning.

started off with my english oral presentation preparation.

gonna do bout william shakespeare's biography.

great topic to start.

as if.

he's bisexual.

lalala.*

rumour has it all.

*+*

went out to popular last night.

bought coloured markers for my history presentation, a new file and a purple highlighter.

at the same time, i spotted a shelf arranged with stabilo coloured pens.

i love colours.!

oh my goodness.

bought 25 of them.

it came in a stabilo case holder.

the colours are so pretty.!

variety shades of red, blue, green, purple[!], pink. you name it!

love love love it!

obsessive much.?

well, colours make me happy.

he makes me happier.

che-wah.

serious! he does. :D

formal assembly tmr.

-.-

they post-poned it till tmr.

wonder why.

guess it's back to blazers and ties.

urgh.!

don't like wearing blazers and ties.

*

he's taking his nap now.

missing you, dear.

well, gonna go off now.

have to seriously start on my chart.

but.

before that,

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, DADDY!
I LOVE YOU`

xoxo.

signing off,

-wenn-

+ a materialistic world +

[ twilight to a brighter fate` ]

exhausted.

just got back from the hospital.

as usual.

the basic saturday morning routine.

had my physiotherapy.

it was okay.

tiring but okay.

he even said i'm improving.
yay.!
((:

couldn't be happier.

;p

as for the rest of the day.

gonna start on my homework.

pack with tonnes.

with a history presentation due.

english oral and malay oral.

p.s: i hate orals!

seriously.

)):

sighh. oh well.

gonna go to popular later on.

hmmm.

nothing much happened this week.

just didn't like it at all at the mo'

but who cares anyway.

*

failed math.
typical me.
):

lalala*

oh well.

report card day is next week.

it's just gonna be me and the report.

parents are not here, sad case really.

boo hoo.`

oh oh.!

happy birthday, angel!!!
god bless with you lovelier smiles, a brighter halo, and a jolly good pairs of angel wings.
:D

love you to the top, dearie`

<3

well.

gtg off now.

xoxo.
signing off,
-wenn-
missing him.

[ auroras` ]

la dee da.

not exactly in the mood to blog much...

but decided to drop by and post something.

school started yesterday.

i hate mondays.

seriously. i hate mondays.

woke up tired.

sleepy.

blurred.

mindless.

all in all.

totally un-myself.

sighh.

the usual routines continue to pick themselves up and i had a hard time preparing myself in the morning.

tsk tsk.

can't really get used to it waking up wee hours in the morning and i mean 6.15am.!

-.-

sad case laa!

i want more sleeping hours.!!!

*snores*

ahh well.

parents are leaving tmr night for nigeria.

flight will be past midnight as usual.

gonna miss them like crazie`

sighh.

):

*

a m person (he/she/it called him/her/it-self that) from my cousin's blog has been talking shit lately on my cousin's chatterbox. really annoying. and ironic at the same time. hate these kinda people. learn your values. tsk.`oh well.

no use talking to ppl like these. they're the one making a fool outta themselves. can't change that fact.

gtg. ditto.!

xoxo.

signing off,

-wenn-

p.s: walter lee kok wai.! i miss you.!
)':

[ will you catch me if i fall?` ]

i guess i've fell down hard.

flat on my ass.

hurting and throbbing in every direction.

but the thing is...

my butt is not the place that's causing the problem.

it's the heart.

it's aching.

.terribly.

i've made a mistake.

well, not exactly a mistake.

but i wasn't being considerate.

you were always there for me...

through thicks and thins.

laughters and tears.

smiles and frowns.

joys and sadness-es.

well, though it's only 2 months.

it seems a long time to me.

from the thought of it, i know people who reads my blog will go "cheh, 2 months only what. not gonna last."

but i'm gonna prove them wrong.

i'm gonna prove my mom wrong.

i know it's wrong to have a second boyfriend...

but...

when the right time comes...

you can't stop it from tripping and falling straight in love.

i know i'm only 16.

i know it's way too young.

i know there's a long journey ahead.

i know studies come first.

i guess certain things can't be control...

i'm no goddess.

i'm no miss perfect.

i'm no angel.

i'm just me.

an ordinary teenage girl,

finding its way back to love.

finding its way back to herself.

finding its way to a new me.

finding a way to forget my past.

finding a way to unleash myself for who i wanna be.

me.

i've released my anger at you.

i've throw my tantrums.

you were sweet enough to call just to check on me.

just to make sure i'm okay.

but i didn't appreciate it, instead, i shouted back at you.

throwing my miss princess temper through the phone thinking that it was somethin' wise enough to do.

but i guess i was being a brat.

i didn't realize how much i hurt your feelings after you abruptly hung up.

tears just rolled down...

my throat went dry, i can barely speak or utter a word.

eventually there came a "sob"...

my heart aches...

now i know how much you mean to me.

i'm sorry for everything.

i'm sorry for how i gave you tears when you want me to be happy.
i'm sorry i can't be perfect.

i'm sorry for not being a good girlfriend.

you tried so hard just to cheer me up...

you were always there...

you were my strength when i was weak...

you were my shoulder to cry on...
you were so understanding...

you were my eyes when i couldn't see...

you were the one who gently dries my tears from my face...

but this time, you're not here...

all i can do is just to hug my pillow tightly and let the tears to wash my sanity.

...the only thing i can say now is i'm really sorry...

i'm sorry, baby.
please forgive me.

-iluvu-

by the strike of midnight. it'll be 2 months.
2 months and still counting on.

xoxo.

signing off,

-wenn-

+ silhouette of a broken hearted +

lost in a maze,

drowning in tears;

path with no traces,

i love you, dear.

[ a whole new world` ]

lalala.
*aladdin's "a whole new world" song playing*

nono.
more like a whole new me.

layered my hair today.
)):

well, it isn't so bad. :D

kinda like it. it's shorter of course.
more layered than usual.

will get used to it.

got it cut in Kajang.
dad had to go round and round looking for the shop.

thanks to me.
i forgot the way.
*embarrassed*
teehee.

but thank god we asked waiyi.
she led us the way thru the phone.
yay.!
thanks jie!

i miss you.

gtg off now.
going back to oug.
awww`

see you bloggie on thurs!

xoxo.
signing off,
-wenn-

+just the same old me,
but with a slight different appearance.+

get used to it, hun!

p.s: i miss my boo.~
<3

[ royal flush` ]

goodness.
i can sense the abandon-ess here.
sorry dear bloggie.

was away for almost a week or more.
holidays were boring.
-.-
sad thing.
):

nowhere special to go.
dad's already back.
still...
he didn't bring us anywhere.
the only place was OUG.
-.-
"fun fun fun"
as if.
ahem*

*

went over to zu's place yesterday.
was supposed to do our physics and chemistry projects.
ended up...
we didn't even start on anything.
instead*
we were friendster-ing, teasing and laughing at random people.
lol.
hmm.

i miss her`
aww`
[ ain't lesbo*. no worries. :D ]

her dog doesn't like me for some reasons.

):

hmm. i'm nice.
*angelic-look*
really.
oh well.
lolx.

*

there's no connection in my grandma's place in oug.
so couldn't get online.
rotting day by day.
all i can do is my holiday work.
which...
gets abso-fucking-lutely BORING after 30 minutes.

)':
cries*

i need entertainment.
by all means.
NOW!

mom's birthday is 5 hours away! she's gonna turn the big 44!
freaky.
o.O
ahh well.

lolx!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!
I LOVE YOU.!
<3

xoxo.

siging off,
-wenn-
p.s: I LOVE YOU, WLKW!
missing you like crazie.
boo.! )':
hugs and kisses.

27th May `07
a day to remember,
a journey with no destination,

a lifetime vow,

a reason to love.

piggie.
*oink*
-piggie face-