16 Months & Counting On

Happy 16th Month, baby.

It's crazy knowing how time flies. It's already 1 year & 4 months. I never knew that we would last this long. It didn't take me a lifetime to know that you're everything.

Despite all that had happened, I'm glad I'm still with you. I never gave up & I've never regretted at all. It may all seemed really tiring & exhausting but loving someone is about forgiving & learning to love deeper & more unconditional.





But I supposed, words can't possibly describe everything. It's the thoughts that count & the heart that cares.



- xoxo -

lots of love.
ilwa&f. `

i have a sudden urge to delete this blog & create a new one on wordpress.com. so depressing!

***

it's the o8.o4.o8.
the day that marks a year.

- loves.`

[ 8.12.07 ]



another month has passed. & it's already 8 months being together with you.

life can be so unpredictable when you fall for the one. i dunno how long this will last, but i hope it'll be long enough to make me happy. (:
i love you.

8 months & counting on...

***

anyways, we went to midvalley today. was supposed to go with mom but she decided to ditch me & head off to Parkson. wth.

typical mom. -.-

went to body shop at first & stupid sales lady bloody conned me! =/ i've got coupons for certain items in body shop. so, basically normal ppl like us would think that the coupons are to redeem those items. & of course, i did ask the sales lady a few times to confirm it. & she said yes!
YES!

i grab the stuffs that i wanted & head off to the cashier. i thought the total of it would be about $100+ but nooooo...
it was fricking $235!

my eyes went crazie big! i didn't expect it to be that much. & worse mom didn't come with me, i had only 170++ in my purse. )': how i wish the atm card is still with me...
so i told her that i just want the black & glitter eyeliner. it's $77 for both.

so much for smiling-wide-in-the-end-of-the-day.

wth.

sighs!

):

watched enchanted with him. the 3rd time i'm watching it! lol! but it's a good movie & i don't mind. besides, he hasn't watch it yet. so, decided to accompany him. :D i'm a good girlfriend, yes? *perasan-ing*

that's pretty much it. day has been quite short. had tuition in the morning. reached midvalley at 3.15. didn't get to shop around much. oh well.

***

sometimes, a person's patience has its limit. you went beyond it & i had enough. if you insist it is me. fine, it's me. but it's only because i'm nice enough to say "it's me". if it was someone else, you won't always win & get what you want. after all, i'll just walk away & accept that you need someone to take the blame.



signed out *

p.s: i wanna go christmas shopping. (:

i love you `



8th of nov.
7 months being together with you means alot more than just love.
after everything, those sorrows and tears..
it's not easy as it seems to last that long.



& maybe, some might even think that 7 months mean nothing at all. nothing compare to several yrs being together. it is true.
but being together does not need comparison.
it cannot be compared.



it is for both people to know whether if it is worth every single tears, love, frowns, smiles and laughters.
no one needs to knw those bad days we've went thru to understand how we feel.

nothing is the same & even ppl does jeopardize it.
it's none of their biz.

i am happy to be with you*
to be the one you* loved.
to be the one you* think of.
to be the one you* know that will always be there.



despite everything i did to you, i still cared no matter what.

to cope thru the bad times of life and the good times of life.
to appreciate more.

to smile wider.
to laugh louder.

to sense better.

to love greater.



***
karma.
'what goes around, comes around'
just like what some anonymous posted a msg in my chatterbox.
i deserved what happened on me.

uh huh, it is true. i do deserve it. i'm not denying anything. i let out the truth.

to open up my heart and not be afraid of how i feel.

i'm grateful of what happened to me because everything happened for a reason.

i accept it. i cherish it.
& i learn from it.

(:

i don't care what others think 'bout me any longer.

it used to matter alot.

but not anymore. those ppl out there thinks they know me better than anyone else.

but too bad, to those who think they know me and started commenting their thoughts, you guys seriously have to work on it. you did not make a fool of me by saying something rude or any discriminations.

you're just making a big fool outta yourself.
shame on you. whoever you are.

***
anyways, the day was boring. stuck at home. as usual. without better things to do.
i need to go shopping!
waiyi oh waiyi, when are you ever gonna come home?!
it's taking f-o-r-e-v-e-r.!
;p



rmb to get me pressies from ausssie too, kays? hehes. :DD
well, that's all bout it. toodles.`

Love is patient, love is kind.

It does not envy, it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil,
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
- heard it from 'a walk to remember' -

[ umm. to anon_gurl: i didn't get it wrong. i know it's from the bible. i searched for it on the internet. it's just tht i used the wrong words, tht's all. thanks anyways. & sorry. hope you have a good day. (: ]

ilwlkwa&f! (:

signed out *

[ will you catch me if i fall?` ]

i guess i've fell down hard.

flat on my ass.

hurting and throbbing in every direction.

but the thing is...

my butt is not the place that's causing the problem.

it's the heart.

it's aching.

.terribly.

i've made a mistake.

well, not exactly a mistake.

but i wasn't being considerate.

you were always there for me...

through thicks and thins.

laughters and tears.

smiles and frowns.

joys and sadness-es.

well, though it's only 2 months.

it seems a long time to me.

from the thought of it, i know people who reads my blog will go "cheh, 2 months only what. not gonna last."

but i'm gonna prove them wrong.

i'm gonna prove my mom wrong.

i know it's wrong to have a second boyfriend...

but...

when the right time comes...

you can't stop it from tripping and falling straight in love.

i know i'm only 16.

i know it's way too young.

i know there's a long journey ahead.

i know studies come first.

i guess certain things can't be control...

i'm no goddess.

i'm no miss perfect.

i'm no angel.

i'm just me.

an ordinary teenage girl,

finding its way back to love.

finding its way back to herself.

finding its way to a new me.

finding a way to forget my past.

finding a way to unleash myself for who i wanna be.

me.

i've released my anger at you.

i've throw my tantrums.

you were sweet enough to call just to check on me.

just to make sure i'm okay.

but i didn't appreciate it, instead, i shouted back at you.

throwing my miss princess temper through the phone thinking that it was somethin' wise enough to do.

but i guess i was being a brat.

i didn't realize how much i hurt your feelings after you abruptly hung up.

tears just rolled down...

my throat went dry, i can barely speak or utter a word.

eventually there came a "sob"...

my heart aches...

now i know how much you mean to me.

i'm sorry for everything.

i'm sorry for how i gave you tears when you want me to be happy.
i'm sorry i can't be perfect.

i'm sorry for not being a good girlfriend.

you tried so hard just to cheer me up...

you were always there...

you were my strength when i was weak...

you were my shoulder to cry on...
you were so understanding...

you were my eyes when i couldn't see...

you were the one who gently dries my tears from my face...

but this time, you're not here...

all i can do is just to hug my pillow tightly and let the tears to wash my sanity.

...the only thing i can say now is i'm really sorry...

i'm sorry, baby.
please forgive me.

-iluvu-

by the strike of midnight. it'll be 2 months.
2 months and still counting on.

xoxo.

signing off,

-wenn-

+ silhouette of a broken hearted +

lost in a maze,

drowning in tears;

path with no traces,

i love you, dear.

[ je t'aime` my one and only. ]

omg.! i just realized that today is 8th of may.

see what i mean when work does gets to me sometimes? and this is the time.

urgh.

oh well.

8th of may.

1 month.
( time seriously passes reaaall fast )
freaky*

*

back to the 1 month topic. ahem. i love you dear. thanks for always being by my side. all those supports and midnight secrets. lil' wishes and loving misses. really glad that you're the one.

* 1 month and still counting on *

*lotsa hearts to you* ~ muaxies. ~

forever truly yours.

xoxo.

signing off,
-wenn-
* the girl who's no longer in a make-believe fairy tale *
{ilwsm} (: