Irreversible

is it me? or are things starting to change in a blink of an eye(okay, maybe not just a blink)? but still, things aren't the same. & it's bothering me in a way that makes me feel so insecure. i don't feel the warmth that i used to feel before. i'm falling deeper into an endless pit. i wish time could just stop. needless to say, for the past few days, i'm always depressed. but all i can do is just fake it with a smile & let the world know that i'm okay. am i really okay? that, i can't even answer it truthfully. sometimes, i wonder if god is working his mysterious ways to put me through all these? to be frank, i have enough of everything. the people. work. & life. i just wonder when will it end.