never wish upon a star

just when i thought that things are finally turning around, reality had to hit me in the face just so i can feel the pain all over again. i don't understand why fresh tears still sting my eyes. do i even mean anything to you anymore? there is a difference, & i can feel it. no matter how many times you tried to convince it, it's not helping any longer. everything you said used to mean alot; it makes me feel right but i don't know about now. i want to feel the way i felt before, but you're making things so hard for me. maybe time do wear things off. i guess i can't hope for things to turn around or even hope that things will be how they were supposed to be.

i shouldn't have put up such high hopes, it hurts from falling. & i really don't wanna fall again. stars are meant to stay there & not to be reached, because i know no matter how hard i try to reach them, there are worse consequences that i have to face.