Where Rainbows End

i'm getting the feeling i won't make my blog last that long as i promised when i first signed up on blogspot after all. what rubbish. -.-

anyways, it's been ages since i last updated. almost a month ago i think. sheesh. so much for being a 'responsible' blogger. what has it gotta do with responsible anyways.

- updates -

i just had my 17th birthday in the gardens & mid valley on the 27th of july with most of my friends in school. i love them all. :D they are like the sweetest angels ever. mun, leon, alex, kah hean, jinxung, shusim, lianyan, junhao, bernard, chooming, pang, shermin & jason were there for my birthday.

it's been such a long time since i celebrated it. for the past 3 or 4 yrs, it's either me being sick / injured my foot / parents were in overseas. so there goes my b'day down the drain. but it was different this year & i'm really glad everything went well. my mom even got back from overseas on the 25th. had a small celebration with her & the family on sunday night; parents still owe me presents, i don't care! :D had an early celebration on saturday night with the boyfriend. he was really sweet, got me an odm watch. *loves* well, apart the fact that he had to attend his friend's b'day after that -.- *sobs*. he didn't even wait until 12am. oh well, it was all good.

friends made my day on the 27th. got plenty of presents from them. but what touches me weren't the presents, but the fact they cared so much about me that i didn't acknowledge of before. i'm really grateful to mun, leon, alex & the rest of them for the lil' but yet special surprises. & specially to mun, the one that was always there for me regardless of the most miserable of time & the happiest of moments, gave me a novel with a short msg written inside. you make me teared after reading it. all i could say & think of is thank you so much to all of you. but of course, not forgetting my beloved cousin all the way in australia wishing me happy b'day as well. same goes to my friends from jb. (:

some of the pictures that we took.

more pictures will be up hopefully when i get them from leon if & ONLY IF i rmb to post them.

i guess that's all about now. rambling away on a weekday when i'm supposed to be in school but sadly i'm sick with a terrible flu, sorethroat & a fever. back to studying.

p.s: i drove! :D

PMS

i'm one day late.

emo-fied.

More Than What You Thought

only to those who know me well enough. i heart you guys.

What Choong Ying Wen Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

i had nothing better to do & so that's the reason for this. somehow, after reading what came up as the result, it kinda make me realise that it's partly true. & it spooks me. =/

Kiss My Ass Goodbye

it's funny to know that there are two contradicting sides of a person.

Twilight of Aggravation

history is condemned to repeat itself.


& once again, just when you think that everything's over, it had to wash & slap you across the face. to remind you of the past. to remind you of what you did. to remind you that your heart still aches from the pain.

memories are often known as sweet. but there are bitter moments that ppl remember. nothing in the world is perfect, no one is flawless. but of course, it doesn't mean we can't hope or wish for things to go our way. it doesn't necessarily conclude that we're on our own, draggin' our feet on the untrodden paths & conceding shadows of others'. at least, now i know that i won't always be alone. i know that you're still gonna be there. at least i'll know that i don't have to face the cruelty alone.

even if it means i'm gonna lose everything, there's a thought of it that counts. there's a heart that cares. & there's the memories that will put me thru it all.

if only you knew.

Looks can be Deceiving

& i thought cempaka was efficient.

so much for that. the fuse-box or whatever you call that thing was burnt ytd (that's what i heard) & because of that, the air-conditioning in that particular block is down.

what's worse, my class is in that block! for the love of god, just get it fixed or get a substition like maybe a standing fan in each classroom to comfort us (students & teachers) it's so hard to concentrate with the heat that's burning your skin & making you sweat while doing your exams. i was sticky even before 12pm. & by the end of the day, my butt was literally soaked. damn disgusting. it's as though i cannot tahan & peed in my skirt before reaching the toilet.

we pay so much for the school fees, nearly $6000 per sem. & this is what we get. wth.

i so wanna sue you.

Illiterate

man boobs are 'moobs'. or so i've been told. i did a search on google & believe it or not, they are really called moobs & atrociusly disgusting.


okay, so physics came & went. surprisingly, it's not as bad as i thought it should be. i think out of all my sciences, physics is the subject that didn't make me stress as much as it should compared to the others. but oh well, it's over & i just have to keep my fingers crossed that results will turn out well. i wanna improve. duh, of course, i don't wanna get degraded or something after working so hard.

i just wanna know that i'm capable to do well & so, that proves that i can work extra harder to gain a higher grade which i hope i will for the other upcoming exams. i have english & math exams tmr. it's not so bad, right? i just have to worry for math i supposed.

& ppl or i'd say my loveable friends, please stop calling me "england" or "you're made from england" or any other phrases with "england" in it. i'm so not made from england. -.- just because my name is yingwen doesn't make me england. now i realised, i have such great friends.

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today is the 20th may. yeah i know that all of you can read the date from the header & i know that most of you know what day it is today but heck, i don't care. i'm gonna say it either way.

today is the 20th may. & so it's my great daddy's birthday. although he's not here in m'sia but we will have a belated celebration when he gets back this friday. good dinner in some delicious & expensive restaurant, bill under your name. :D

HAPPY 49th BIRTHDAY!
lolol. you're one year older! :D







ehh, & i sent like 2 text msgs to his number in nigeria last night exactly at 12am sharp m'sia time wishing him happy birthday. & guess what, the msgs couldn't be delivered. -.- blame the operator or whatever for not receiving the msgs. i'm still a good daughter for wishing wishes that are not delivered.

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i went through my archives & i just realised that my blog is already 1 year old. well, 1 year old & 5 days to be precise. it's so hard to picture that i've actually typed all these entries on my online diary for the past one year. it spooks me knowing how fast time flies.

Fast Forward

why does always bad moments have to last longer than the good ones?


it's making me sick & tired of trying to get over the phobia (yes, i fear exams. literally have a phobia) of having exams to be over. it's monday today & i have 3 more days left before we go for the mid year break. but those 3 days seems so long away plus i have exams as well. i'm drenched out of having facts & formulae getting implanted in my brains, it's like it's gonna explode & squish out from my skull! sheesh. the day is dragging itself. i can't wait for exams to be over but come to think of it, the next exams i'll be facing will be trials which i think is hell alot worse.

just stab me please. anything. oh, what the heck, i have to live through it. no matter how much i'm complaining, i need to face it nevertheless. ):

i always thought reality is a lesson to learn for me to stand strong & suck in everything i've got to face the world. but you know what, i'm out of breath. seriously. i need a break but it always bring guilt in the end.

Hormones

it scares me in a good way i hope, knowing how my time of the month is always exactly on the 18th morning.


the first week of exams is over, leaving me with 4 more subjects to kill next week. just hope that i can survive the cramps for these few days & pray to lord that i don't faint from the pain.

don't you just love physics.